Do I have one original thought in my head? Maybe if I were happier, my hair wouldn't be falling out. Life is short. I need to make the most of it. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. (Ref: Heli Shah)

I'm a walking cliche. The mentor called again. I'm lagging behind in my submissions. If I stopped putting things off, I'd be happier. All I do, is sit on my fat ass. Surf. Facebook. Twitter. Blog. If my ass wasn't fat, I'd be happier. I wouldn't have to wear a shirt over a Tee just trying to hid my paunch all the time. As if that is fooling anyone. Fat Ass. Maybe I should start working out again. Start with 30 minutes a day. Then improve. Really do it this time. Maybe Jogging. Sakshi will support me on this. 4 kms a day.

I need to turn my life around. What do I need to do? I need to fall in love. I need to have a girlfriend. I need to read more, improve myself. What if I learn German or something? Or I could pick up learning guitar again. I'd be the German speaking, guitar playing engineer turned MBA graduate. That would be cool. Maybe I should cut my hair short. Stop trying to fool everyone that I have a full head of hair. How pathetic is that? Just be real. Confident. Isn't that what women are attracted to? Men don't have to be attractive. But that's not true. In today's world, there's almost as much pressure on men as there is on women these days. Why should I be made to feel I have to apologize for my existence? Maybe its my brain chemistry. Maybe that's whats wrong with me. Bad chemistry. All my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance or some kind of misfiring synapses in my head. But I'm still gonna need help. But I'll still be ugly, though. Nothing's gonna change that.